Happy 10th wedding anniversary! It's the last thing either of us want to think about. Another celebration without you.  Christmas and new years were very hard, it doesn't seem to get any easier. 'Times a healer'....it's not. Life is very saddening right now, rather heartbreaking. I don't cry now, I don't understand why though, because I feel like crying everyday.  Everyday I think and remember...the memories. It really breaks my heart that I cant see you anymore.

We were so close, yet now we are so far away from each other. George Michael is another addition to the concert up in heaven. His loss was very sad news, I bet it is to you too as you never really liked his music. We both miss you so much. I can't really explain how much of a loss you are, it hurts too much for words. I still cannot believe this has happened to us. I still can't believe you have been taken from us. It hurts so much. Yet we both smile and plod on. For the life of me I will never figure out how...oh daddy, we miss everything about you. I gave aunty M her christmas present from you, in a way we stuck to tradition. As I would always choose the perfume from NEXT that I think she would like the most. We love you daddy. We miss you more everyday, every minute, every second.