Thinking of the last day you were here. I'm not sure why, as it breaks my heart every single time. I still cannot bare to listen to Comfortably numb. I just can't. That was the last song we heard together. You left us at 2 mins 57 seconds into it. I cannot bare it. I wish I could as it reminds me of you. Maybe one day.

I remember looking back at the hospital as we walked out with our family. I felt like I was leaving you there. As if I was abandoning you. You hated hospitals. It makes me sad that you left in a place where so much pain happens. I seem to be revisiting those days more often lately. I don't want to, but I do. Grief is so very strange. I don't think I will ever understand it.

Always daddy.

For you daddy. Its from you're art. The outline is you'res. The swirl on the back legs is inspired from Watership Down. Its just a little part of you I will carry on my body. The rest of you I will hold onto tightly in my heart. For always daddy. I love you. 

My handsome daddy in Paris. Thinking of you papa Bear. Always.