Its my birthday on Thursday daddy. My first birthday without you. I am going to miss you more than ever on that day. (I know what you're thinking dad, and its not because of the mass of presents you would always get me!). It is because I will no longer be able to celebrate the date of my birth with you. I wont even be able to hug you Papa Bear. It makes me both sad and angry that you have been stolen from me. 

Its still so very hard, some days I don't know how we get through days. Sometimes I think people believe we are magically cured and don't feel the grief any longer. Just because we smile and laugh, it doesn't mean we aren't crying. You are not here anymore. That is something that we will struggle with for a very long time. Because whether you knew it or not daddy, you were a very special person to a lot of people. I love you Papa Bear, so very much. 

I will enjoy my birthday, because that is what you would want me to do.